I believe in spirits visiting you in strategic moments. I wonder if one day your daughter will whisper words to you through the wind that blows in between the trees in your backyard. I think believing is about taking a step. That step might be very painful. Because perhaps when you start to believe she’s a spirit then you are accepting whole-heartedly that she’s no longer on earth.. I’m not sure what the answer is or the grieving process. I’ve never had such a huge loss. But as a parent, I can feel the hole inside me when I think about not having my son. I think you are doing extremely well considering the circumstances from your writing. I hope you continue to heal!