I didn’t find out I had ADHD until I had PTSD in my thirties. So, you can imagine my sense of “wierdness” I felt all my life made me feel like I wasted my potential. But, it’ s not true. A whole of people who made a difference in this world at a later age. The late bloomers are often more successful because they have expressed these “down” moments and having been rejected by society. So, what helped me was to listen to my intuitions and relying on what I “need” at the moment. Often, you will find jobs where you least thought you’d find by following your interest. Good luck! I think 2020 will turn out to be a great year for you.