I’m sorry that you had to go through that trauma dealing with your father’s suicide. I see exactly what you are saying about mental illness. The person who is experiencing it can’t often help himself or herself. I remember when I first went to see a psychologist to talk through my divorce issues, we went over the times when I was suicidal in my life. During my teenage years, I had an episode, where I felt numb completely. Like I couldn’t feel anything. I remember wanting to jump off the building were we lived. I looked at the window. I would obsess over climbing over and jump off. It wasn’t even a decision where I acknowledged the magnitude of what was going on. It was a 50:50 chance that I could’ve done it at that point. It was purely luck that I didn’t jump off. People around me like my mom didn’t have the capacity to care. So, no one made me feel better. It took years of self-improvement work to slowly climb out of that “numbness”. Looking back, I felt lucky for my life. It could’ve been gone.. but somehow I retained it (not by choice) just I lucked out that I had things in my life that ultimately pulled me out of that “numbness” — albeit slowly. But it did happen. Anyway, your article made me think that if we all had someone who could recognize signs in us — someone close that we might all be pulled back from that “decision line”. With time, we can get a new opportunity at life.

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